I don’t have time for this post!

I’m sitting here in my living room on my “Saturday” (which is Friday since my work week is Sunday through Thursday). I’m being a good student and focusing on three of my four classes.

Working 40 hours a week and taking 12 units of classes sounded so much easier before school actually started. I now understand the raised eyebrows of current students.

It isn’t easy being just shy of 30 and trying to balance all of this. The college system works in such a way to make things extremely difficult for us non-traditional students and I’m not sure why that is. Especially non-traditional students like myself who are even more non-traditional than the rest. Getting a degree in theatre isn’t something most people my age would do.

My schedule keeps me feeling perpetually guilty. There is always something I need to be doing, and something I am feeling guilty for not doing. If I’m not at work or in class, I usually feel terribly guilty for not focusing on something related to one of them. Or if I take time for myself, I not only feel guilty for not working on something for school, I I feel guilty for not keeping in touch with long distance friends or family I haven’t seen in forever. Or I have guilt about an upcoming freelance project I need to be preparing for. Or the personal projects I always wish I had time to focus on (like this blog).

I don’t feel like I have the weight of *THE* world on my shoulders, but I do feel like I have the weight of my own little world constantly on my shoulders. At least if I were worried about the world at large, I’d have a little peace in that there’s nothing I can do about it, but with my own world weighing me down, I always feel bad for not doing more than I am.

*sigh*

Today, I’m trying to get as much done as possible today so I can spend tomorrow outdoors, enjoying the estimated high of 80F without too much guilt.

Edited: February 27th, 2009